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I have been surreptiously avoiding writing on xanga out of pure laziness. But after looking at my last post I realize that alot has happened since I left STF. Afterwards like seriously the next day I was on a plane to Cheong pyeong, and I stayed there for two forty days. lol yeah I had to let go of alot of stuff and break through.

so since then I went to korea and worked at the GOP center and then hung out with the STF guys in their worldwide Assembly. So its was really awesome, but I was sooooooo wiped out afterwards. Anyways since then I've been home and alot of days are dull,b ut hey whats a man supposed to do? All things are good, and in a week? STF! yeah I'm going back to do my first year over again. just giving up didn't really settle with me and I want to face my life and all its challenges with the confidence and faith to know that it'll all be alright. SO I felt I needed STF. I want to do it. No matter what I want to bring a true meaningful victory that I can stand on for the rest of my life. SO I'll be seeing you guys soon.

write to meI'll post the address sometime promise! thanks ya'll!

I have come to realize only too late it seems how precious STF really is. When i see the pictures of the brothers and sisters in the pictures below I have absolute respect and gratitude towards them. Below are the Young People during the years of 2006-2007 that volunteered to comfort God's heart. Below are my hyungs and nunas ( my older brothers and sisters spiritually).

i know without a doubt God and True Parents are so proud of these members, and i am too. My only goal is that I can bring as much joy to God as these members have done, and humbly follow them wherever they may go seeking to support them and follow thier example.

In Montana, a team for almost a week went pioneering in the Mountains for training

Salute and watch out this sister's team is ready to love God and the world!

A sister's team that went out to challenge Montana

Mika is an amazing sister, and only if she knew what STF and God had in store for her...lol

This is where it all started at kick off

Thats RIGHT! This is the team of random states and we ROCKED God's entertainment contest!

GO MIDWEST! And 1st place GETS....CELERY!

A Commander that I have come to respect and love with all of my heart. he has truly helped me to be who I am, but continues to push me to be better. ;)

All of STF 1st,2nd, and 3rd year volunteers. This is God's army of youth leaders,and I will always feel honored yet repentful that I couldn't offer more to this team and family.ITS OK! KAIZEN! I won't give up!

An amazing humble borther who is truly now my hyung. Please pray for Tim he's still on the frontline and is desperately seeking to become a leader for all young people around the world,and a son who is seeking to comfort God's heart.

Me? I've come to realize that I'm not ready to accept respondsibility to be a child of God, and I need more time to prepare. So I'm going to Cheong Pyeong and afterward I'll be back to finish what I started. thank you for supporting STF and believing that we can achieve God's ideal Peace Kingdom and that the Kingdom of Heaven isn't a joke but can and will become our living reality.

I've come to accept it because I see myself already changing in my relationship to my parents, siblings, spouse, and friends. I guess true love just does that kind of thing to you. It helps you believe in yourself and others.

One God's word that has inspiried me to keep on going is;

"All beings are created to be beings of true love" Rev. Sun Myung Moon

God Bless everyone and Good luck in your own life of faith. Aju

It was good while it lasted...

  So its time to go. Todays my last day before  go back to STF. I'll be flying out to Colorado, and from there I'll be heading tot he East Coast. Hyun Jin Nim is doing a 12 city tour and I'm supposed to be support of the singing crew, but errrr Kojin hasn't practiced at all. I'm in Big trouble if I can't practice before then so I need to download the music or something.

But in the mean time while I was here in Alaska I ended up skiing, taking the youth out of a movie night and sleepover, spent time with Jaena and Family, and met a really col guy named Nathan. So all in all its been great. But actually ya know its good to be going back, I CAN"T WAIT TO SEE EVERYONE! EXCITING!!!!!!!!!

The Girls! This is when we went skiing..apparently I'm a natural. heeheehee Ok so KOji Man has got to work on a couple things but there's potential. ;)

Thats my man! Nathan Harnett. Amazing at Guitar and can do 360 grabs, 720s, and in working on the backfilp for snowboarding. Most important of all he's a good friend.

These are Jaena's girls! Actually Lena and Myla are the only girls pretty much in Anchorage so its good that they have Jaena

Nathan started doing band practice with the other kids. Here he's teaching them about powerchords. Its really awesome things are starting to happen in Alaska. The youth finally have something to plug into and hyungs to look up too. Still not totally there but an awesome start for sure.

The most photogenic kids in the World!!! We were invited for dinner andhad to get some photos of the cuites. ;0

Yeah!  The Boys sleep over and no we didn't just play videogames the entire time. ;) It was really good. I felt the kids really appreciated having a hyung around. So Mansei! ( I got all the kids to say that now...heeehhee.)

I have videos too so I'll try and put those on tonight? errr

I'm Back I'm Back!

hehehehehehhe....

Sorry its been sooooo long since I've written. But honestly I don't know what to write. I'm ok. Well except that I have the stomach flu. Grrrrr...while I'm on break I get sick. hahahahaha well, its ok. It was so bad though. Jaena does this paper route at 2:15 in the morning (crazy right?), and I was helping her whe I got to the second house and just threw up last nights luch and dinner. It was alot and it was everywhere.

So I tried to cover it up with snow and I just hope theres no complaint? Psssshhh if course there won't be any. lol But yeah so while I'm chilling, I've been trying to reach out to the youth in the community. Its really cool theres this really cool guy named Nathan who was able to come. He's planning to take me snowbarding. Oh snap! But the goal is to get over this cold....oh boy and get ready to be on Hyun Jin Nim's singing crew for his tour.

Here's some amazing pics from STF:

Merry Christmas from Brownsville Texas! (We were 20 minutes from the border of Mexico)

Yes we went swimming on Christmas day! It was kinda cold. I mean Elan is wearing a down jacket. ;)

We were doing serivce projects in Minnesota (from left: Jacob McCarthy, Yoshi Hisano, Peter Perkowski, Jason Eide, Brian Eberly, and Takanari Kuwahara)

Ummmmm...yes Nathan Breland and Brian Eberly hehehehe

Yeah! So during STF one time I heard the cops stopped Tami for looking like a bank robber...NO JOKE ;)

This was just last week in Estes Park we were on a hike

More to come I promise ;)

If you want to say hi....that might be a big IF ;)

hey so its really difficult to go on the computer sometimes, especially when I only have an hour. But I wanted to thank everyone who still thinks about me and if you want to send pictures, letters anything because I don't want to lose touch with wants going on send it to

P.O. Box 55038, hayward, CA 94545

I want to know everything. When you get married, if you have kids, your dog died, and oh yeah

my birthday is December 5th nudge nudge ;) wink wink

I'll write back too I promise. I have time int he van to write to you so don't worry I will keep in touch!